Impossibilites

So I feel like I'm the luckiest girl in the world right now. I'm still at my friends house and managed to lose another 3 pounds while on vacation. I know now that I am committed to this new way of life for me and the person that I will become. We went to the beach today again and had a cookout on the sand. It was really fun! I had two Turkey Sausages with Cheese and they are only 120 calories a piece! I stayed within my calories thanks to CalorieCount.com and know that I have done well while on this vacation. I just figured it out and I have 25 more pounds to lose to reach my halfway goal point on July 17th. Let me remind you that today is July 5th!!! I don't know if I am able to do that and am kind of scared when thinking about it. I really want them to take me to Hawaii and I really have been working my butt off doing this. It's such a life changing thing and the hardest thing that I have ever done and I just hope that the production people know how hard I am working for this. Not only is the aspect of Hawaii helping me, but I just plain out want this for myself. I need this for myself too. But I'm just going to keep a smile on my face and work my butt off. In the end I will be where I want to be and my body will be what I want it to be. I'm not going to let people hold me back by what they think about me and say about me. This is for me and only me. Wednesday's back to the grind and I'm ready for it. I'm ready to get my butt kicked my Jimi and do everything possible to get close to that 25 pounds in the next twelve days. Anything is possible, even when you don't think it is.

Burnt

Happy Fourth of July!! I hope you all enjoy some fireworks today and get out there and walk around some. I'm in Grand Haven, Michigan for this weekend visiting my friend. It's me and my friends Kelsie, Morgan, Jessica, and Basma and we are having a BLAST! I think I should have put more sun block on though because my back side is a little burnt. So here is some sunblock that you should use, so as to not get skin cancer =) The Neutrogena Ultra Sheer Dry Touch Sun Block, SPF-55 is the best, and I should have bought that instead of the off brand stuff, obviously. But my friends and I are 5-Star camping. I brought my huge tent and a queen size blow up mattress along with two other twin size mattresses. It's pretty sweet, we even set up the tent by ourselves, which is cool because we are girls and we don't need no man to help us! We are independent! Ha ha. But yeah, it's really cool. Last night we went out to the hill by the water, where the fireworks are going to be tonight and set down a blanket. It's neat because since it gets really busy they allow people to go out at 12:01am and set a blanket down. So we did that and then went to Walmart last night to buy shirts to tie dye today, which will be fun too. But I never really thought about this before coming over here, but I really miss my family during this weekend and was just thinking last night, this could have been the last Fourth of July that I could spend with my family on the lake since I'm going to college next year. Hopefully that isn't true and we can all do something next year still, but who knows what's going to happen within a years time. Things change, people change, but I know my family will always been there for me. So, get out there and hang with your families and just remember, they always got your back.

The E.L

So I'm sitting in the computer lab at Michigan State University right now and it's kind of cool. I get that sense of freedom and "things to come". It's kind of scary but at the same time I feel ready for it and ready to move on in my life. It's kind of hard to make friends because it seems like everyone already knows everyone else. But that's okay, there are more then just my orientation dates, there were many, so that's a lot of kids too, and hopefully another best friend somewhere. It was kind of funny though, I was talking to this kid named Aaron and told him I was on an MTV reality show and he just looked at me like I was lying. It's not like I opened my conversation with "Hi, I'm Kirsten and I'm on TV", no, I didn't. It was kind of funny because then I went to another class and we had to say what we were doing this summer and so I told them. Their faces were priceless. It's not like I'm looking to be famous or want to be famous, but they were like "What's your name? I have to remember it." So of course, I told them. But I don't think I'm going to say anything else about it while I'm here because people just kind of give me a weird look. I was supposed to go workout tonight seeings as I couldn't go to Jimi because of being in East Lansing, but I couldn't. The one good thing was that it was so hot I sweat A LOT and walked about 4 miles today because my residence hall, Akers, is in the East Neighborhood and far away from Case. But hey, it's exercise, right? I'll have to go home tomorrow and run before I go see Eclipse! Oh, yeah, and can you can EXCITED?!?! IMAX babyyyy =) Speaking of books and everything, MSU is making us read this book calls Zeitoun by Dave Eggers. I started reading it, and it actually wasn't that bad. But I am definitely going to write tomorrow seeings as I've been lazy. So goodnight blog world, until tomorrow =).

Beat It!

         So today was a lot of fun. I went and worked out like I normally do but instead of going home I went to the mall (which is ALWAYS a good thing) and then went back to the gym and went to a kind of choreography class. We learned the dance to the song Beat It by Michael Jackson, basically, it was a blast. I've never done anything like that in my life, but it was so, so, so much fun! You should definitely try and get his CD, Number Ones, it's basically the BOMB! Haha. But anyways I was talking to the Fitness Floor Manager, Linda, who is amazing too, and she said that my friend and I could teach a class if we learned a dance and wanted to try it. I was like what?!?! But now that I think about it, that would be so much fun, and it would help keep me moving. So once I find a dance to do and get it down, I might actually be teaching a class! Hah, that's insane to think about, right?!
        Also, my clothes are starting to fall off right about now. I had to go buy new workout clothes and let me tell you, the Danskin Cosmic Dots Racer Tank is the way to go! Between that and the Danskin Woman's Crop Cotton Drawstring Pants, they are the most comfortable things ever! Seriously, I now know what it's like to have actual comfortable workout clothes and they never ride up and are just plain out wonderful. You should really check them out.
        Well, tomorrow I get filmed so it's going to be a very busy day! I need to get my beauty rest!!!  Goodnight bloggers =)

Mile 1

This summer is the craziest thing that has ever happened in my life. I have cameras on my face, can't eat anything I want, and exercise three hours a day. Throughout my blog, I'm going to tell you what has helped me get through this summer of craziness including books, music, specific shoes that are GREAT for running and basically, anything that has given me that extra kick in the butt I've needed. I just got reading this great series called Vampire Academy Series, and I know, I know, yes, it's a vampire book. But it is sooo good! I literally read all five books in ten days and am anxiously awaiting the sixth one to come out sometime in December. It isn't a book series that has necessarily "helped" me get through things, but it definitely got my mind off of things when I wanted to eat. It's great! I honestly don't know why people don't use the library systems more. Bored? Go read a book, they teach you things, fiction or non.

But anyways, today my dad went with me to workout and it was great. I ran a mile full out, without stopping in 12:04, which is a lifetime record for me. Not only the time that I ran it in, but because I ran it without stopping! I've never been able to run a mile without stopping in my life and it happened today. It was hard, I'm not going to lie, but I honestly felt like I could have kept going, but that little red button with the word "stop" looked too good to be true. But still, I did it and it was something that I will never forget. My first mile =).

Oh, and I wanted to tell everyone too about the Crim in August. On Auguest 28th, 2010 I will be running in the 5K road race in Flint for the annual Crim Festival. Everyone should definitely come and run or walk or jog, whatever! But just get moving! You don't know how great the human body actually is until you start doing things that you thought that you could only wish you could do. It's great. If you need any information about it, contact me and I can find anything out! It would be a blast if some of my supporters showed up at the race and ran it with me! If you can't run it, again, walk it! I'm definitely not one to judge these things and will help cheer you on! So come on people, get out there and do things that you never thought you could do!

More about...Me!

So I thought I would take the time and tell everyone who I am. Obviously, my name is Kirsten and I'm eighteen years old. I just graduated from high school and it's pretty surreal. I don't think it has actually hit me yet that I won't be going back to high school next fall, instead I'll be attending Michigan State University. I'm the only State fan in my family, but that's okay, I'll convert them eventually. =) This summer has been pretty insane and it's only starting. I've learned more about myself the last few weeks than I have ever before. It's insane. Cameras in my face, working out for three hours a day, eating less than 1400 calories a day, it's all so crazy and so different from anything that I have ever done. Luckily, I have great friends that get me through the day, even if I don't get to see them much because of my busy schedule. They help me more than they know and now I have this blog to help me keep my sanity too. I want to keep this up through the summer and if the readers like it enough, I might keep it after that too. Eventually, I want to put things that help me get through the day on here so that you can click on them and buy them if you want to. Because honestly, I'm going to be completely honest on this blog. No walls, no windows, no nothing. Just complete, and totally...me.

Me.

So this whole website thing is a little insane, but I'm getting used to it. What's even more insane is this whole MTV thing. I never in my life thought that I would be doing something like this. It's the scariest, best, worst, craziest thing that I have ever done in my life. Weighing the amount of pounds that I do isn't healthy, isn't fun, and isn't fair. I've gone my entire life being heavy, fat, overweight, whatever. There are so many words that people say for it. I've basically put them all in a file and put them under one name: Pain. Not physical pain of course, but mental pain. What people were thinking about me, what people seen when I walked by. It's not something an eighteen year old girl should have to go through, but that's my life. Speaking of my life, my name is Kirsten Selley and I live in Michigan. I'm attending Michigan State University in the fall this year and am on a MTV reality TV show.